Well its been awhile..

Well its been awhile since i made one of these..lets see whats going on.Well first of all i now live with Shel and Bar_Boi..its alright but we need a bigger apt especially since my guy Philip is coming back from England and staying for 5 weeks.I miss him tons so i cant wait for him to get back here.I started a new job which i hate i only started 3 weeks ago and so far i've had "a death in the family and the stomach flu and a car accident" i just wanted some days off..haha thats bad i know.Anyhoo thats about it..nothing exciting really..except an exceptionally large tax return.WhooHoo more drinking money..

Later

2 Comments | Send To Friend | 1 April 2003

"Have you ever wanted..

"Have you ever wanted something so bad you could feel it within your soul, its running thru your veins like blood from your head to your toes?Not wanting it wouldnt feel right,like something's missing..ya know?Well I wanted something that bad.It was what i needed what i thought I needed.But it wasnt what i needed at all it was different.Things arent what they seem DONT ever let anyone let you believe things are what they seem coz they're not and they'll come back to bite you in the end!"

Thats just my fav part of a monologue i once heard..pretty neat i think..lol

0 Comments | Send To Friend | 19 December 2002

Make Me Slowly In The..

Make Me Slowly In The Image Of Your Perfection!

0 Comments | Send To Friend | 13 December 2002

So yeah its sunday..

So yeah its sunday evening..just got off the phone with a 2hour conversation with my guy.Arrgghhh I hate him living so far away but what can ya do.So the roomies and i are getting along well.Rick is kinda pissed off at pierre right now..Pierre told him the only way they could be together was if he stopped drinking and partying..Not a good thing to do rick is a strong person and i know he wont change but he hates being put in that situation coz he really likes pierre.But hey i'm not getting involved in this i just dont think anyone should change for anybody.Anyways I gotta go for now..more to come later i gotta calm rick and jack down on the drinking they're getting loaded and i think jack wants to paint something..lol i gotta stop him before we end up with a brown kitchen or something!!Eeeep

2 Comments | Send To Friend | 8 December 2002

Well its 722am..Another..

Well its 722am..Another sleepless night..seems like they're getting more frequent.This sucks..i gotta be to work by 4 so if i go to bed right now at 730 i'll get up by 1 and be out the door by 3..sounds ok i only get what 5 and a half hours sleep..but I wont go to bed right now..lets try 8..that sounds more reasonable..Wondering why i cant sleep?Prolly not so i'm not going to tell ya.I know that my roomie is having trouble too its 730am and he's cleaning out the fishtank..hmmm maybe this not sleeping thing is a good thing for him..hahah..we'll see..As always thnkas for reading and getting to know a bit more about my twisted life..lol

0 Comments | Send To Friend | 2 December 2002

Well I was kinda..

Well I was kinda wondering...I dont know many straight guys..in fact i know one..that would be my boyfriend.All my male friends are gay.Obviously..you can tell from my previous diaries.I was wondering if all straight guys act the same or if my boyfriend is just trying to give me a hint.He's in England right now going to school..he came here from oct 17-nov 1.We had an amazing time.Told each other we loved one another..it was nice.He went back and says he cant wait to see me again and he loves me and all that stuff and he's coming back for sure in the summer maybe sooner.BUT he never calls me i always have to call him first or tell him to call.He never responds to any of my e-mails.Its like one minute he loves me so much and i'm the only thing he thinks about and the next he barely talks to me.My friends think he doesnt call often or write emails coz hes busy with uni and work..but i dont know.Maybe I'm just an insecure person..like all my life i never had someone care about me the way he does.I've never had a guy treat me well and not call me names or degrade me,but make me feel special and beautiful..i just hope i dont smother him and push him away.I mean its hard enough being on opposite sides of the world..hmm well if anyone has any idea of what i should do or your opinions on this please let me know.I really love this guy and i know he loves me too but is it a bad thing if he goes like a week without any contact or says he will call then i dont hear from him for days..maybe i'm just being psycho..hah anyhoo..later

0 Comments | Send To Friend | 21 November 2002

whoa what a night that..

whoa what a night that was i dont remember getting in bed!haha

0 Comments | Send To Friend | 10 January 2003